That’s genuine repentance.
Now that makes sense for the murderer. But what if your standards were so high, that you started to say to yourself, “What kind of man does that?” (Because of the way you spoke to your wife or because you didn’t go and watch your child’s football game.) Wouldn’t such an attitude lead you to change? Wouldn’t such an attitude lead you to repentance?
"It is with the holiest fear that we should approach the terrible fact of the sufferings of our Lord. Let no one think that those were less because he was more. The more delicate the nature, the more alive to all that is lovely and true, lawful and right, the more does it feel the antagonism of pain, the inroad of death upon life; the more dreadful is that breach of the harmony of things whose sound is torture. He felt more than man could feel, because he had a larger feeling." (from "The Eloi" in George MacDonald's Unspoken Sermons)
God is very kind to us, even though we don’t deserve it. Every good thing comes from God. And as if that is not enough, God—the creator of this world—became a man and died for you and me just because he loves us. He died to set us free from sin, which ruins our lives and the lives of others. Jesus died to set things right; to set things right between us and God. When our relationship with God is set right, all our other relationships will begin to be set right too. But in order for this to happen, we must trust him.
We cannot be close to God while we refuse to trust him. He loves us just as we are, but he loves us so much that he wants us to be perfect. Only when we are all that we were meant to be can we be truly free.*
Today is the day of salvation. Thank God for becoming a man and dying for you. Ask him to forgive you and help you, then start to trust him. Only he can set you free. Only he can make things right.