And all he wants me to do in return is enjoy him and trust him.
"When my child would serve me," he went on," he spies out some need I have, springs from his seat at my knee, finds that which will meet my necessity, and is my eager, happy servant, of consequence in his own eyes inasmuch as he has done something for his father. His seat by my knee is love, delight, well-being, peace--not service, however pleasing in my eyes.--'Why do you seat yourself at my knee, my son?' 'To please you, father.' 'Nay then, my son! go from me, and come again when it shall be to please thyself.'--'Why do you cling to my chair, my daughter? 'Because I want to be near you, father. It makes me so happy!' 'Come nearer still--come to my bosom, my child, and be yet happier.'--Talk not of public worship as divine service; it is a mockery. Search the prophets and you will find the observances, fasts and sacrifices and solemn feasts, of the temple by them regarded with loathing and scorn, just because by the people they were regarded as DIVINE SERVICE." (Taken from Thomas Wingfold, Curate by George MacDonald)
Every good gift comes from God. But how often have I acted as if good things just fall out of the sky? To enjoy him I must be aware that whenever I’m enjoying a good thing, that good thing is from him.
It’s not how much we have, but how grateful we are for what we have that counts.
Ingratitude is a terrible sin.
I’ve been like a spoilt child who is ungrateful because he thinks the gift he received was not good enough. To be so ungrateful for such a beautiful gift, just because of some small imperfections in the gift, is an awful sin.
To enjoy God, and repent of sin, that is what it means to be a Christian. (See here)
So what do I believe?
I believe the truth leads to the true God.
"He who begins by loving Christianity more than Truth will proceed by loving his sect or church better than Christianity, and end in loving himself better than all." ~ Samuel Taylor Coleridge
We must love truth more than our beliefs about God. The Christian, Atheist, Muslim or Hindu who loves their beliefs or doctrines about God more than truth, will not be able to accept truth when it contradicts what they have come to believe. We must not be afraid of where the truth might lead. We must not be afraid to ask hard questions.
Asking questions is never a problem. The problem is most people never ask the right question.
Near the beginning of one of George MacDonald's books, Thomas Wingfold, Curate, an atheist challenges a minister about God's existence. This causes him to doubt his existence and because of that, he starts thinking about giving up the ministry.
Wingfold keeps this to himself and shares it only with a trusted friend. This leads to a discussion about whether or not God exists. He asks his friend, “How am I to know that there is a God?"
His friend responds:
"It were a more pertinent question, sir, If there be a God, how am I to find him?"’
That’s the right question to ask.
I expect a lot of opposition from those who love their doctrines (their beliefs about God) more than truth. (All I ask is that if someone in your church holds views which you regard as heretical and dangerous, that you address the "problem" the way Jesus said such problems should be addressed (see here). Unfortunately I think most people who believe what I believe can relate to the story told in the sermon The Outcasts Comforted.)
It can be hard for people who have studied the scriptures intently to admit that they might be wrong. They are not likely to give those who disagree with them a fair hearing.
I strive to be the best man I can be. It’s not wrong to wish to be great and it’s not wrong to compete. (But it is wrong to try and be better than others. See here.) I know that only God can make me all that I'm meant to be. Only he can help me rise above the cares of this world.
God means more and more to me every day. He has set me free and he is setting me free. The more I enjoy him and seek to enjoy him the freer and stronger I become.
Who am I?
I'm an Australian.
But that's enough about me. I want to know a little bit about you. What inspired you to read this page?
Perhaps, like me, you not only wish to be free of the things that enslave, but you also wish to see the church reformed. If so, please write. The Kingdom of God is more important than the unity of the Church.
A Grateful Servant of the King,